Arrggggh~ Been real stressful about some things.
Detest any kind of stress, but still,
it makes me feel alive.
Honestly, those things shouldnt concern me.
But after all is over, these are the things
that will affect me as well.
To be honest, I once thought that I might
never be able to care for anyone anymore.
For such a long time, I have locked my heart
in the deepest of darkness, so I would not
care for the person who's supposed to be
the closest to me. Yes, him.
(It's really not easy. Mind over Body,
or Body over Mind thing.)
So it was rather miraculous that these things
actually made me worried and affected my mood.
Even though I feel that my past still cast a
shadow and makes me wanna throw everything
behind me and leave for good.
Or vanish from the surface of the earth.
But after learning it the hard way,
I've decided to fight for the thing
worth fighting for. I've decided to
ask and fight for the things I want,
instead of watching them slip past.
Being thankful is the key to being happy.