Haha, I guess the most ridiculous thing just happened.
Not sure if they would read this, honestly,
I dont really care. No, I dont care a bit.
The usual routine early in the morning.
Reading through news feed and playing games
right after i settle in the office, with nice breakfast in front of me.
Came across a few photos that LX posted
for her 2nd brother's birthday.
You'll probably be surprised how fast I scrolled through it.
I actually spent more time reading articles.
Well, I'm not sure if you see it as bad or heartless.
But when I was told to spare a thought for my son that time,
it went "He would be so much better off with them",
and that was it. I left, trying to make the best for everyone.
The episode got weird when more photos were posted,
this time by the Mom. She has two accounts on facebook,
one, I believe remained 'friends' with me, while the other was
probably created after. She used the latter to post the photos,
and tagged me. Totally W-E-I-R-D.
It was around lunch time when the notification came in.
I can totally relate to this meme when I noticed it. =D
Well maybe, thanks for tagging me on a post that
I wasnt there, or involved.
I'll try my best to appreciate your effort,
since it's so very nice and kind of you.
But please bear in mind that since the moment
you started thinking that I do not have the ability
to take care of my own son,
this is exactly where we were headed straight to.
I know right from the start, that I have nothing to
worry about, concerning my son.
He wouldnt be mistreat or anything.
He would be happy, maybe happier with me out of the picture.
(Not to mention all the badmouthing that would go around)
Eventually, everyone else would be happy,
and that would just prove that I made the right choice.
I left, for a better future, for myself, and everyone else.
I'm happily doing what I love,
strongly fighting for what I want,
blissfully planning for the future too.
I wouldnt mind a bit if my son wants to be
part of my life. Honestly, not a bit.
But that would probably upset quite a number of people.
If he really wanna, he would find a way into my life.
(Remind me of the time people were telling me
how my son was always asking for me.
If that were true, bring him and prove it.
Otherwise, it's as good as saying nothing at all.)
So for now, I shall live my life to the fullest,
do what I love,
love those who love me,
and give thanks to everything that is.
=Simply because Life shouldnt be of regrets, and some things arent to be regretted=
Work has really slowed down so much recently.
Since the two companies are going to split their accounts,
so before I'm assigned to anything new,
my workload is half as it used to be.
I have been surfing the net, playing games and all
for practically the whole day these past 2 weeks.
Just when I ran out of news feed to go though,
articles to read, games to play, blogs came knocking into my mind.
First thing was to glance at my last post. Almost 1 year old.
Which means it has been almost a year since I parted way with Ben.
I wonder who is even reading this.
Did what I always do when visiting friends' blogs.
Opened every single link in a new tab.
Only difference is that the time spend reading them.
Most of the posts are at least a year old,
just a handful are diligently writing.
Kinda makes me feel very disconnected from
everything I once loved.
I still love writing and I'm writing right now.
Honestly, I have to say I'm loving my life now.
Probably because how much I felt being
imprisoned and trapped before.
I'm glad I broke free, from whatever that was
holding me down.
But still, I cannot say that everything is perfect now.
I'm still working on it, and that makes me feel alive.
Of course, there are things I missed from before.
But life goes on, and sometimes we just have to let them go.
But one thing I have to say,
I'm thankful for whatever happened to me before.
Even the marriage that just did not work out.
(Of course I did see it as a gigantic mistake that I made,
and messed up all the way since. But now, I see it
in a different light. Talk about that some other time maybe~)
For everything happened, happened for a reason.
I've made choices, mistakes, and have made it this far.
From now on, I shall work hard for what I want for my life.
-=Because in my life, I am in charge.=-