Saturday, January 31, 2009
When staying at home is unbearable

I'm getting irritated again.
Over the small, little things
everydae. But I think it's not
the small, little things everydae
that's driving me crazy. In fact,
I'm dealing with them everydae
for such a long time now.

What bothers me more is how
Ben actually react to that.
He told me that it's ok and
asked me to just let it go.

Of course it's not okay!
He's my son and I'm not respected
in making decision for him.
Dont come telling me she asked
me whenever she wanna try something new.
She just asked for my opinion
and go on with her way.

But I will let it go. Now, I
either care alot and start a war,
or fuck care and make peace.
Talk about vulgarities during CNY.

It's also difficult for Ben.
No matter wad, that's his mother.
Even if he knows all the fucking
points about her that make people
fucked up, he cant do anything
about it. (or rather, he's done
everything he could but nothing
really changed.)

That's that for now.

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j0tt3d @t 2:06 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Never the same

Happie Chinese New Year to all~~!!
hahax. This is the first CNY since
I got married. Things got alot more
different and complicated. Hahax.

Well, I guess things is already very
different from the day I got married.
Things will be very different once
a woman get married. As you know,
she had been living in a place,
in a way for 20 years, or more, or less.

Then, all of the sudden, they have to
adapt to a whole new place. It's not
easy at all. Not all of them can handle it.

So it's not easy being woman too. hahax.

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j0tt3d @t 9:18 PM
Monday, January 19, 2009
Hair Loss

OMG~! I think I really is slow in nature.
I read from the net that women who just
gave birth may suffer from hair loss
for some time. But Daven is almost 4 months old!

It was about a few weeks or a month since
I lost a lot of hair. Haha. When combing,
bathing, blah blah. I think I need YunNam.


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j0tt3d @t 9:55 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
By demand

By demand, I shall upload 2 of Daven's latest photos which are taken on 6th Dec.
Hahax. ok. It's not so recent. LOL.

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j0tt3d @t 11:36 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Chinese Horoscope

I read this email my friend sent to me at least a month ago. I finally checked my emails~! Hahax. It was subjected "Very very very accurate horoscope". But all horoscope emails say that. Though not all live up to that.

BUT this is really accurate. At least for my horoscope that is. It's in long long chinese essay, which I would try to shorten and translate to English.

It says that Librans are paired up with the word "elegance". They are like wine, crystal cups, gowns, pianos, always attracting the attention of all.

Librans are labeled as amiable and loves to make friends. So everyone thinks that Librans loves to be around people and definitely dislikes being alone.

BUT that is not the fact.

In public occusion, they will try to balance up the mood. They will joke to break the ice, and be calm when the heat's up. Even though Librans hates troublesome things to the core, they will take up this responsibility. Just because they want the balanced mood.

They are not calculative about their money, but is very to their own quiet time. Like every other Wind Horoscope, they like freedom.

They like being alone. Even if you are their best friend, dont stick to them too much. You know they dont like it, but they will not tell you that. You also have to believe that even if you didnt see your Libran friend for half a year, you will still be their best friend once you meet.

That is who they are. What can you do about it?

Librans love to say "I'm too lazy to...". They are lazy to go out, lazy to gather, lazy to everything. So they dont like parties. They would rather stay at home, surfing, reading, drawing. To them, being balanced alone is much easier than making everyone balanced. So they like being alone.

Normally, Librans make people feel good with their lovely smile and elegance. When they meet people for the first time, they will show their best side. But the more you stick on to them, the faster they back out. It's not because they dont like to be around people. But it's because they keep thinking about the other party's mood; trying not to have any conflict. It makes them feel at work. So they are never relaxed.

They dont like to console people or being consoled. Because they know that no one can truly understand someone else.

Librans is actually a loner horoscope.

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j0tt3d @t 11:22 PM
Monday, January 05, 2009
I miss the old Me

當世界 不知不覺的變了
有時候 我懷念以前的我
作的夢 雖然遠遠的
想像是 一種快樂
擁有了 同時也失去什麼
而眷戀 原來會帶來軟弱
你讓我在霧裡成熟 心開始曲折

我不想捨得 不想懂得
是誰惹誰 言不由衷
說謊傷害 都是不安犯的錯

我不想捨得 不想懂得
誰說割愛 才更深刻
彼此依賴 是愛不是負荷
互相照顧就是 幸福的

我願意 一秒鐘放棄全宇宙
擠在只有我們 緊靠的小星球

我不想捨得 不想懂得
是誰惹誰 言不由衷
說謊傷害 都是不安犯的錯

我多不捨得 多不懂得
誰說割愛 才更深刻
彼此依賴 是愛不是負荷
能握著手就是 感動的

~ I miss the old Me ~

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j0tt3d @t 10:28 PM
Me, I && Myself

XueQi aka eRika aka GinGeR

I love to bake,
trying out to cook.
I love cookies,
learning to like making cakes.

I can be nice
or evil.
I can be hyper
or quiet.

Trying my best to always
Love what I do,
and Do what I love.

I serve Nuffnang!

hIdInG pLaCeSsS


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