これってストーカーさんというのかなぁ。
仕事中で時間があれば、
元カレのページに行ってしまう。
彼のことを思ってはなく、
ちょっとだけ複雑な～。

I hope it's not growing into some kind of obsession.
I dont usually think about it unless I have
more than enough time on hand.
(Which is basically at least once a day during work =O)

But I guess I can at least be glad that
it's not growing to be something unhealthy?
Still, somewhere deep within me
is this voice that keep whispering
about how he must be scheming and planning
to do something bad or revenge at me.

Maybe I'm just being paranoid.
Maybe I just haven't let go yet.
Maybe it's just my mind wandering too much.

Whatever it is, I'm feeling hungry now,
and shall grab a snack before knocking off work.
(and maybe drop by his page again XD)

Having received that good news after all this while of hard time,
I thought things might turn for the better from there on.
Well, I guess it's not always that way.

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The other party had responded,
and will be contesting everything other than the ground.

At first, we thought that even the ground would be contested,
since it was not specified in the response.
I admit that I was quite affected and maybe worried
when the news reached me.
But after a day of brooding at it,
I simply decided that since the worst is here,
there is nothing more I shall be afraid of.
Right after, I came to term of myself,
and his decision of pushing it through.
Now, I'm really looking forward to the
brand new episode of our lives after all this is over.

Upon request for the Defense (for the ground, I believe)
from the other party, they responded, saying that
the ground will not be contested.
Being prepared for the worst, this lifted our spirits.
I'm not sure how long this is going to take,
or how bad (or good) the outcome will be.
Still, I am and will be looking forward to the end.
For I will have your hand in mine,
and everything will be just fine.

If things are not better, it's not the end yet.

From the very beginning, I have had this thinking in me.
Somehow, I am really grateful to her for being so difficult.

For every time she lie,
he got firmer on his decisions.
For every time she make things difficult,
she push him away and nearer to my side.
For every time she blame everyone except herself,
our bond grew stronger and our heart, closer.

For Love is the one thing that keeps you strong when nothing else can,
not something that causes pain and suffering.

感謝の気持ちを込めて、
今日のブログを書きます。

この一年間は幸せだったけど、
やっぱ苦しくもあるのね。
離婚してから、お金も
居場所もなくて、大変だった。
仕事探しも何月間かかったの。

去年の六月に仕事をしはじめ、
少しずつよくなって、
お金貯められてきた。
だけど、彼氏のほうがもって大変だったわね。

家も車も貸付がたくさんありそう。
詳しくは知らないけど（たぶんちょっと知りたくないかも）、
毎月ギリギリよね。
一緒に暮らしてから、
家賃っていうか、
毎月お金のほうに手伝ってます。
生きてるって大変やな。

最近、彼が離婚のことで
ちょっと悩んでるみたいだ。
「お金でとけるコンナンは問題ではないから。」
そういっても、やっぱりキツイやね。
こんとき、お金を貸してくれる人なんて
いると思わなかった。

本当に助かったの。
感謝の気持ちを言葉にできない。
それでも、本当にありがとうございます～

A post dedicated to cheese-lovers, cake-lovers, yummyfood-lovers, and everyone else! xD
June 2014 is probably the period of time where I made the most cheesecakes.
Thanks to the love of my life, I was able to set up this mini business.

His company has this yearly fund-raising charity event which we wanted to join last year, but didnt due to the lack of preparation. This year, the notice came last minute like always, but we got our mind set on taking part this time.

With the classic cheesecake recipe I have with me for the longest period of time, I must say it's one of his favorite treats, we made poster on the day we were notified about the event. To be honest, it turned out to be really nice. Even though we have so many other things on hand to worry about, we still made time to make those cheesecake together. =D ( Though there were also times we worked till late and got cranky =X)

I'm not sure if I should be affected, or if I should feel bad if I'm not at all affected. But to me, this should have a bad effect on the person who actually did it more.

In case anyone does not understand what this post is all about, allow me to do some explanation. Don's ex wife posted some of our group photos from school events, and commented on one of them, saying, "Curious about who these are? It's my ex husband and his little lover"

I must say I was rather entertained. Not to mention the fact that those photos were taken way before I even got close to him, there was 2 other females who was in every photo she posted. xD I couldnt believe that she was that desperately in denial. But on the other hand, maybe doing so makes her feel better.

Moving on to her comment. Quoted 'ex husband'. Ex means the past tense 'was', means someone need to do some moving on here. Yet, she seems to be 'concerned', if I can say, since she posted the pictures. I was really tempted to reply her comment with something like, 'Thanks for your concern. I hope you find someone soon too.' Just MAYBE she has good intention. =)

Honestly, I have been trying to be understanding to her situation. It's really hard for anyone to go through a divorce. I left my husband with literally nothing, and the only place was my mom's. It was really tough, but I must say, I became happier with who I was then. My life got better, even though I had nothing in my pocket, and struggled to keep myself alive.

So I do understand how stressful it can be. But what I do not understand is why she doesnt communicate at all with her ex husband. What exactly does she want out of the divorce? What exactly is she having problems with? Well, even if she doesnt want to talk about anything, the least she could do was to stop making our people lives miserable with her, I suppose?

She makes me feel that she has a mountain of problems which she doesnt care to share with her ex, and yet make everyone's life difficult, including hers.

Yet, she continues talking bad to his family about all the bad things he had done. All which not a single word was spoken to he himself. (Not to mention that she never say a single word of her own fault, and even insist that she Is Not at fault at all. I kinda figured she might be in quite a denial.) I cannot seem to understand why she is not trying to make her life better, instead of drowning herself with the bad things that her ex or other people did to her, so she can continue to believe that she was never at fault in this entire relationship.

-=For it is useless to talk reason with someone who chose to barrier oneself in one's own world.=-

Updates: The photos were taken down shortly after, but only one of the status posted remained. (Since it caused discomfort to other people than ourselves.) Just like the leopard that cant change its spot, she posted yet another on Monday. Honestly, I simply cant be bothered by it anymore. =D