Work has really slowed down so much recently.
Since the two companies are going to split their accounts,
so before I'm assigned to anything new,
my workload is half as it used to be.
I have been surfing the net, playing games and all
for practically the whole day these past 2 weeks.
Just when I ran out of news feed to go though,
articles to read, games to play, blogs came knocking into my mind.
First thing was to glance at my last post. Almost 1 year old.
Which means it has been almost a year since I parted way with Ben.
I wonder who is even reading this.
Did what I always do when visiting friends' blogs.
Opened every single link in a new tab.
Only difference is that the time spend reading them.
Most of the posts are at least a year old,
just a handful are diligently writing.
Kinda makes me feel very disconnected from
everything I once loved.
I still love writing and I'm writing right now.
Honestly, I have to say I'm loving my life now.
Probably because how much I felt being
imprisoned and trapped before.
I'm glad I broke free, from whatever that was
holding me down.
But still, I cannot say that everything is perfect now.
I'm still working on it, and that makes me feel alive.
Of course, there are things I missed from before.
But life goes on, and sometimes we just have to let them go.
But one thing I have to say,
I'm thankful for whatever happened to me before.
Even the marriage that just did not work out.
(Of course I did see it as a gigantic mistake that I made,
and messed up all the way since. But now, I see it
in a different light. Talk about that some other time maybe~)
For everything happened, happened for a reason.
I've made choices, mistakes, and have made it this far.
From now on, I shall work hard for what I want for my life.
-=Because in my life, I am in charge.=-