Thursday, August 09, 2007
It just hurts

Yay~ It's National Day~
and it's Ben²'s daddy's birthdae~!
I know I should be celebrating,
but sometimes, you just cant control how you feel.

Another dae spent with Ben² & family.
But I dont know why, being with him
would make me think of Tsuki-chan & Tsubasa-senpai very often.
A little too often.
Sometimes, it even knocks me off my feets.
It's not that I dont like being with him.

Birthdae Steamboat. We ate alot,
and I made Ben² eat alot too.
I think it's the first time I ever took care of someone.
But it's Ben² DiDi mahx.
Though nothing extraordinary happened,
just sitting together and eat is good enough.

Can a person love two persons at the same time?
Can she be with one and think of another?
Sometimes, it just hurts so much thinking.
What would it be like, if I didnt like any one of them?
What would it be like, if I didnt even know them?

I love both of them, and I mean it.
I hate to choose, to hurt, to be hurted.
But right now, there is nothing I can do
to make any one of us hurt less.
I just wanna be myself, but sometimes,
it even hurts that way...

[I love him.]
[But that doesnt mean I dont love you.]

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Me, I && Myself

XueQi aka eRika aka GinGeR

I love to bake,
trying out to cook.
I love cookies,
learning to like making cakes.

I can be nice
or evil.
I can be hyper
or quiet.

Trying my best to always
Love what I do,
and Do what I love.

I serve Nuffnang!

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